Ramblings of a Procrastinator

scared

2009-12-13T23:52:11Z

i just friends-locked some entries because.. i'm scared.
i'll admit it i'm scared out of my mind that someone will find this journal and something will go wrong.

because whatever little i have, i don't want to lose.
because if i lose this then i've lost my reason for smiling.

Insomnia

2009-12-08T06:59:39Z

Insomnia
Originally uploaded by .delila.

allnighters are funfunfun

lazy update yo,

2009-11-30T23:33:33Z

this past week,

1)band ended, boo :(
2)listened to wedding dress by taeyang obsessively
3)chilled at borders with maria
4)went to pho32 with lucy, catherine and irene
5)made a tumblr(mynameisfloral-checkit!)
6)watched newmoon with zoe and laughed at all the lulziness(went to panera afterwards <3)
7)track started

well, not exactly in that order.

chewyish @ 2009-11-22T20:55:00

2009-11-23T01:55:06Z

the weekend was really busy for me because it was show day for theater.
friday we went to schoolzone before the show to celebrate. i shared spicy rice cakes with a friend.
they loaded it with noodles are cheese, it was pretty orgasmic tasting <3
saturday was the last day and the cast party at chili's.
i got a ride from our technical director and she drove us there in record breaking time while breaking about 50 traffic laws. ilher <3 8]

well, the dinner was exactly the best for reasons...

i learned that there are really sweet people
and really horrible people.

dear, miss puppet master be alittle more human, kay?

chewyish @ 2009-11-15T14:38:00

2009-11-15T19:38:50Z

i'ved gained 4 pounds.
must have been from all that binge eating and pigging out.

life is stressful.
my layout is starting to look tacky. but html is ebil
i don't feel like writing much.

foodcoma.

2009-11-02T04:13:13Z

i've officially eaten myself into a foodcoma.
i eat when i'm stressed out and the past week has been really stressful so i ate like a friggin third world orphan this weekend.
yesterday i went to the japanese cafeteria with my friends and had tempura don, shin soba ramen, okonomiyaki with pork belly and pumpkin custard. we were all bloated and sick afterwards but ngl, the food there was orgasmic.
today i kind of had a emontional breakdown and went on a binge eating spree.
i was stuffing my face like crazy and watching cheesy dramas. i had an autumn concerto marathon.
autumn concerto= cheesiest over the top drama i've watched but its. SO ADDICTING.
ngl, i was jumping up and down in my seat during the court scene

chewyish @ 2009-10-26T17:34:00

2009-10-26T21:36:02Z

i haven't posted in a while.
but life has been...
hectic, crazy.

kind of bummed out right now. well whatever, i'm always predestined loser anyways (:
going to cry about it and hopefully? get over it.

chewyish @ 2009-09-26T10:46:00

2009-09-26T15:05:06Z

this week has been so long and tiring.
i felt like i haven't slept in like a month.

- drill rehearsals have been really intense
- i have buttloads of hw
- i'm getting fat from eating out so much
- i got sauced x 10 in bio. by a freshman girl that got a 97 without even studying...while i studied all night and got an 84. WE'RE BOTH CHINESE WHY IS THERE SUCH AN UNEVEN DISTRIBUTION OF SMART ASIAN GENES?
- RL wank/ drama
- away game for band where it was negative 123123 degrees
- RL wank/ drama that ensued during said away game.

BB GURL guys are stupid creatures. its not worth getting butthurt over.

SUJU M COMEBACK <3

2009-09-13T19:24:27Z

GAIZ I AM SO EXCITED

LSDFKLSAFJSD UNF. UNF. UNF @ DONGHAE'S HAND FLIPPING
OH AND KYU'S STAR TREK HAIR IS STARTING TO GROW ON ME
<3

fangirly post because RL is suckish and i don't feel like typing up an angsty-ihatemylife post.

D'AWWW

2009-09-07T03:26:13Z

OKAY SO I'M REALLY BUSY AND ALOT OF CRAZY STUFF HAS HAPPENED.
and i really shouldn't be on LJ right now but i saw this adorable sign (made by ryeowook!):

RYEOWOOK WHY SUCH A QTPIE? <3

have some love.

2009-09-02T03:43:33Z

a few hours ago i came back from a very tiring rehearsal, feeling down as always, and decided to look through OMTD & AYTD and i saw this adorable picture. it gave me that wonderful WAFFY feeling that i haven't felt in a while so i decided to spend some time on PS making a banner

so to my internet lurkers & F-LIST:

SWEET DREAMS :)

KARAOKE TIEMZ 8D

2009-08-30T05:22:44Z

yesterday the group had a suprise birthday for a friend. we went to NRB! i didn't sing too much though. i was in migraine induced daze most of the time and the chinese section was WAY outdated the newest chinese song they has was F4's meteor rain...
but lots of big bang songs were butchered along with some rock and CRACK songs like birthday sex with obligatory flailing.
we went for cake and dinner afterwards.
the girls were fangirling over G-dragon's heartbreaker mv and in my head i was like "HAH I KNEW ABOUT THAT WEEKS AGO NOOBS"
THANK YOU OMNTD! <3

i want the CD so bad..

chewyish @ 2009-08-23T01:07:00

2009-08-23T05:15:25Z

today i went to a praise night/revival thing with some of the guys.
it was lots of fun and i wasn't expecting it to be. the praise band was amazing &hearts;
(who said asians couldn't make hot garage bands?)
and the pastor (who was suprisingly young and looked alot like leonardo nam) was very friendly and gave us all rides home.
and random lulzy moment of the day: before going to the praise night we went to a cafe to eat and guess what is being blasted on the radio?
Brown eyed girl's ABRACADABRA! so i kind of choked on my red bean pastry and flailed earning some o_______O looks from the guys i was with.

sexy :B

and my schedule for school came. i LOVE LOVE LOVE some parts of it and some parts make me want to bang my head against the wall and EMO.

chewyish @ 2009-08-15T12:52:00

2009-08-15T16:59:27Z

i had band camp this whole week and my brain is like broken.
but i got to see people again! hurray.

and i finally went to that mysterious box shaped pho/shabu shabu restaurant with some friends. for like weeks i walked past it wondering WTHECK it was.
the pho was meh though.

i finished watching black and white. WANT THE MOVIE NOW

WANK

2009-08-01T02:04:20Z

FANDOM WANK.
IT IS EVERYWHERE.
the DBSK posts over @ omonatheydidnt are kind of in chaos. there is so much waaaaank and crying fangirls.
it kind of worries me even though i don't follow DBSK
.
there has actually been alot of chaos in my life this past week too.
after band rehearsal on thursday i realized that i lost my phone while i was on my way to the cafe with my friends. /FAILS
and alot of stupid stuff happened and my section leader saved me by giving me a ride back to the cafe.
and problem number twoo: i think i broke my brain worrying over my friend...who has been ignoring me lately..

but the week hasn't all been bad

- learned that THERE ARE STILL GOOD PEOPLE IN THIS WORLD
- begining of the week me tiffo & janet went to the cheesecake factory and ate loads of cheesecake and fattening foods ♥ WHICH WAS TTLY WORTH THE 45 MINUTE WAIT (those hostesses discriminate man.)
- my boys in the city season 2 book came today ♥ and i will fangirl over it next post (:

chewyish @ 2009-07-24T19:44:00

2009-07-25T00:05:13Z

IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS....

-AP Homework! (i can't seem to escape this..)
-- went to eat Ramen with ~~akanishi~~ Jin! and had waffles with Gelato @ Redspoon afterwards
-- Harry Potter 6 w/ jonathan squared, alex, suzy, monica, ira, jess & lucy
-- ordered Boys in City season2 from Yesasia <3
-- had shaved ice with Ira and Sarah & more waffles with Gelato @ Redspoon with Ira afterwards
-- had frozenyogurt with mochi <3 w/ Tiffany, Janet & Alex.
--chatting on aim obssesively
--moping & emoing...alot about things... (i can't seem to escape this either..) ~~imissyouguys~~

AND DID I MENTION THAT MY BOYS IN CITY 2 BOOK SHIPPED YESTERDAY?
<3 <3

chewyish @ 2009-07-08T02:01:00

2009-07-08T06:14:48Z

MY LIFE SUCKS.

okay now that i've gotten that taken care of. i've kind of noticed that my journals have a sort of pattern...like an angst/crack/angst sandwich.
to be honest, i'm kind of extremely bummed out right now but its kind of 2 AM in the morning now and my mind isn't coherent enough to rant or whine.

summer has been kind of boring, mostly: volunteer work, reading fanfic (miracle com makes me happy), AP Homework but i've run into some people once in a while so i haven't been COMPLETELY lonely.
Alex&Lesley and moi planned a study date to get some of the AP homework done....but i was the only person that BROUGHT THE TEXTBOOK :| so we ended up ditching the library to go to an asian cafe and we ran into TIFFO&JANET!

there was no korean shaved ice this time but drank bubbletea and chatted and for two whole hours i wasn't mopey or emo.

and on a crackier note: i've been listening to seungri's strongbaby alot recently. the LULZy-ness of the songs cheers me up.
crack, crack, crack.

fandom, i'm back (:

2009-06-30T01:26:51Z

as you can tell from the below post i'm back into the suju fandom, which i took a break from because.....they weren't releasing anything, but i got hooked again when i was sick at home a couple weeks ago and decided to go on kyu-a-day & hae-a-day (because eyecandy obviously makes everything better) and BAM!~ the love came back. the new MVs really make me a happy fangirl. especially It's You because everybody looks especially prettiful in that one. [ILU HAE SUSPENDERS!]

AND THE JAPANESE VERSION OF MARRY U IS LIKE THE CUTEST THING LIKE EVERS. ALDFSJFASDF they all look so squishable *____________*

watch the cute.

and summer vacation has started! my problems haven't been solved yet.. but i'm in a better mood because i'm able to get some rest.
i ran into TIffo & Janet a few days ago at a cafe and we had patbingsoo. super yummy.
and i saw the proposal with some peeps.
it was suckish but i was too spaced out from the extremely hot weather to care.

i think i should LJ cut this...

suju rating.

2009-06-26T18:45:39Z

I AM:

LOL. this is amusing because i am generally pretty awkward/quiet around people i'm not familiar
buuuut i will admit that i do have a snarky/diva/flaily side to me as well.

Life is depressing

2009-06-10T21:51:27Z

on a happier note,

there is no happier note.

Life is depressing.

angsty post is angsty.

i feel like cinderella.

2009-05-28T21:28:28Z

have you ever had one of those days where you felt like you were a princess? well today was one of them.
i was cinderella today.

i went to my school's performing arts dinner last night. the food was bad i got sick and ended up puking my guts out. it was fun though

i'm still kind of sick.

i'm watching Queen of Housewives - stupid, but oddly addicting

i like typing in disconnected sentences.

-

not as much angst,

2009-05-16T14:21:17Z

went to the carnival yesterday night, came back smelling like smoke and grease.
i got to see Tiffany today who hasn't come to chinese class in like 1231323 weeks and i saw Zoe who i haven't seen since November.

and something good happned today. it makes me all WAFFY inside

but i shouldn't even be this happy. my problem is far from being solved.

and i have piles of hw and an architectural drawing project due so tomorrow...
OFF TO BORDERS WE GO!

.i got me some DBY, last friends, dark knight, cape no.7 bootleg dvds. drama watching timee

angstangstangst

2009-05-06T00:06:15Z

BLAH.

my life sucks
well, i tried to fix my life, i did. but it did't work.
nothing has changed. seriously somedays i want to just run infront of a bus and rid myself of all this stupid angst.
but i'm not, because of this tiny shread of hope that my life WILL get better.
i'm an idiot.

and i played cards yesterday for TWO HOURS with Alex and Curtis. seriously, my life needs to fix it self NAO.
because i'm turning into a man :|

whatever i'm going to go and have a Last Friends& Devil Beside You marathon and eat fattening foods now.

chivalry does exist....kind of

2009-04-26T02:38:19Z

break is ending soon...
spent most of yesterday and today trying to finish homework at borders (gasp!)
On thursday somebody did something nice for me.
it was a small thing but i feel happy about it. (probably because alot bad things have been happening too..)
Questions are still half finished though... planned to finish today at borders but was invited to a picnic.....couldn't resist.
soulfighters went! since she goes to a different school it was good to see her again. The usual group was there. It was fun. There was KFC, massive amounts of soda and the mandatory asian group games.

Which means I'm probably going to have to pull an allnighter to finish all the homework that was ignored. I have my vitamin water, massive amounts of lined paper and mangafox bookmarked. I'M READY!

wish me luck... :(

and i miss my fandoms and fangirling things.

springbreak~

2009-04-23T02:53:35Z

on break this week and it is boring as usual. i got a haircut yesterday. got me some blunt bangs to make myself look even more obnoxiously asian (and to hide my acne). I got it done at one of those korean hair salons that look really nice from the outside but are extremely sketchy looking once you step inside, bright pink chairs and the works.
missed the trackmeet i was supposed to go to because of a miscommunication but spent the rest of the day hanging out with the other trackies that missed the bus too.
and i have another list~
springbreak todos:
1. ~~get a haircut~~
2. finish history essay & homework
3. buy a moleskin notebook (red! or black)
4~~.finish card~~

i also might go to the L change the World premiere with soulfighters!.....if she's free that day....

fml. D: